I married when I was twenty. I was young, selfish and I wanted things the way I wanted them. I've always had a good heart and I've always been kind, but my life experience was limited. I'd only ever had to care for myself and I'd only ever worried about my schedule.
I babysat and I watched after younger siblings, but at the end of the day I wasn't in charge. I handed them back and went back to a life centered on myself.
And then at the ripe age of 21, I had my son.
After my honeymoon, I got pregnant right away. Being raised in a family with six kids, I knew I wanted to be a mom. I couldn't wait. I remember the shock when I peed on that stick, Two lines? Really? I peed on another one. Two lines again. In total I peed on six sticks before I told my dog I was pregnant.
When Hubby came home from work I ran out the front door of our new house and he knew right then and there life would never be the same.
That first night in the hospital with my newborn, I stayed awake all night just looking at him. He was perfect. I kept thinking, I can't believe he's mine. I'm responsible for this person. I will never, ever forget those moments I spent with him, examining him in the moonlight that shone through my hospital window.
The next morning, the nurse came in and asked how many wet diapers he'd had. I looked at her confused. How was I supposed to know?
And then it dawned on me. Oh my gosh! I'm responsible for this person. I'm supposed to be changing his diapers! From that minute on I never skipped a beat. I poured myself into caring for my new baby. He became my everything, and I became the back up dancer in my own life.
And somehow, I didn't care one bit.
Today, four kids deep, I can honestly say my life began the day I became a mom. I can remember what life was like before, but I can't relate to who I was at all. I'm more compassionate, patient, loving and much less judgmental. I'll never forget that nurse asking me how many dirty diapers my son had that first night we were in the hospital. It was the moment I grew up and became a "Mama." It was the moment I realized the world does not revolve around me; someone more important would be needing my help for a very long time.
Motherhood is a journey that taught me lessons I would otherwise never have learned. And I'm eternally grateful.
Dreamworks' film Delivery Man stars Vince Vaughn (love him!) as David, an unreliable single man who hasn't found his purpose in life. He learns that through a mix-up at a fertility clinic he is the father of 533 children, and he embarks on a journey to make sense of the mistake. As he starts to find his biological kids, he discovers more about himself, life and love than he ever knew before.
I know the feeling.
Delivery Man is available on Blu-ray, DVD and digital HD March 25. This is definitely going to be on the list for movie night in my house, and you can order it now through Amazon. To learn more about the movie check out its Facebook page.
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