The only constant is change. That’s it. Every day, for the rest of our lives, the only thing I can guarantee anyone is change.
It’s kind of scary if you don’t embrace it.
In the past five years, I’ve experienced more change than I’ve experienced in my entire 35 years. We moved to a different state, moved kids to a new school, Hubby has been through four jobs (he lost the first one, second was to pay the bills before he found another long term one, he found another long term one then was recruited by a better long term one), my sister moved in with us, and my parents divorced.
Did you follow all that? Add in the day to day chaos and it’s been a long haul.
I’m kind of waiting to wake up one day and have the reality of all we’ve experienced hit me in the face. I’m shocked I haven’t had some sort of debilitating break down. But here’s the thing….I’ve kept putting one foot in front of the other, marching.
I march, and march, and march.
I never stop.
I remember when Hubby came home, devastated, and told me he lost his job. We were shocked. Blindsided. We had just relocated.
I let him be devastated, because it was his right. He was upset, angry, confused and felt like a failure. I understood. But I knew none of that would fix the problem. I was scared too, but never enough to break down. We had what we needed. We were healthy, we were together. At the end of the day this was small potatoes. This was fixable. We would do no matter what it took to keep afloat.
I wasn’t going to let that disappointment sink our ship.
I do remember a few moments when I let my mind wander and worry about the future. I remember worrying about never getting back on our feet. Although I never allowed myself to think about it for long because again, that doesn’t fix anything. When my parents split, I knew there was nothing I could do to change it. I couldn't change them either. All I could do was give love, give support and move forward.
The present is the only place to live, because anything can happen.
The only constant is change.
I’m not sure if I was just built in a way that enables me to constantly look forward, but I am very inclined to leave the past in the past. It’s a blessing. I feel like it’s a superpower. I’m an “in the moment” mama. I do what needs to be done and I learn from what we live through. I have wonderful memories, and I try to make wonderful memories. I try to teach my kids the same.
Enjoy every minute. Celebrate the past and look forward to the future. The bad times pave the way for better times. They teach us and mold us and make us stronger.
I needed to share more of our life in an online world that can tends to showcase “highlight reels” and leave much on the cutting room floor. Life is messy, but it’s good. There is so much beauty in every day, even when the day isn’t what you hoped. If you focus on what you have, and not what you don’t have, there is a silver lining.
Through all the change, keep marching. Always. Never let anything sink your ship.